Finding the Strength to Walk Through the Door
Updated: Oct 18, 2018
Sometimes in life God makes it absolutely clear what the next step or next door you are supposed to take is (and these moments are glorious…let me tell you!). But even though the door is right in front of you and you KNOW that is the door you are suppose to walk through, it can be scary.
My sophomore year in college I felt lost. I wasn’t sure where the Lord was leading me next. I switched my majors twice and I constantly felt like I was crying out to God to give me direction…and then He finally did. My youth pastor (Pastor EJ) of 5 years decided to interview me for a position at the church as his Admin Assistant and Assistant for our Student Ministry. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord had put together all the tiny pieces to make this happen. So I did the interview with EJ, interviewed with a few other people at the church and within 2 weeks I was offered the job.
I was SO excited to finally have a place where I could figure out what the Lord wanted for my life and finally feel like I had purpose…but I didn’t realize how hard it would be to leave my school. I went to Columbia International University at the time and I had some extremely wonderful friendships and I knew it would be hard to tell them I was leaving. I ended up telling my roommate and a few of my close friends at the same time and we all cried together. It was extremely hard leaving what was my “home” and my “family”…but it was worth it.
This year (2018) I will have started my FIFTH year working at NorthStar (WHAT!?). God has developed, challenged, and changed SO MUCH in me since I have been here. I have discovered new passions, new loves, and new skills that I don’t think I ever would have known had I stayed at CIU. Not only that, but since I left CIU I have gotten married, bought a home, bought a car and adopted multiple dogs because of the Lord’s blessings of obedience.
I don’t say all of this to brag or to make you think of me in a different light. I say all of this because I believe that a lot of times we let fear or worry keep us from having the best life that the Lord has for us. There have been so many times when I have been at work and thought: “Why in the world would the Lord bring me here, I am so unqualified…I should have stayed where I was”. But that’s not true. Yeah, there are some things that I have had to learn and I have fallen flat on my face multiple times since working here…but this door, this opportunity that the Lord has given me has been one of the best things in my life.
It’s not easy, I can promise you that. God never promised that our lives would be “easy”. I’ve wanted to cry and scream a lot of times since I walked through that door. But ultimately I know the Lord knows my heart (Psalm 37:4) and He knows what is best…so I don’t have to be afraid or worried. I just have to walk forward and trust Him to guide me. The best part of it all is that I know he will NEVER leave me (Deuteronomy 31:6). So if the Lord shows you a door to walk through…cry, jump, sing, laugh, freakout for a second….but then break that door down, cause your life is about to go on an amazing ride.